my blog.. i am sorry!
Wednesday, November 30th, 2005It’s been months since I last wrote in the blog, I was thinking the whole night what actually went wrong. After getting miliions of my brain cell dead, it would be most probly that I was very contended with my life for the past few months. But really do I feel so? I am doubtful myself…..
It was quite recently I find that I am not an obedient worker no more. I use to say "yes sir, i understand" nothing more and nothing less when my boss conducts a private "screwing" session with me. But recently, I changed, I do not know wheter it is a good thing or not? Now, I know what the boss wants but he is trying to beat around the bush all the time, therefore I use a technique that is very common.. I throw the ball at him at make him speak up accordingly…. No more "yes sir" kinda shit anymore. I think he also sees the change in me just last week. Everytime I do it to him, his eyes will pop out and mouth wide open… staggered for a moment. It was a moment of triumph when I do that!
I guess being a hardworking, obedient and loyal worker does not get the figures in the paycheck to increase. Then why do it? I also don’t know, it must be my subconcious that was embedded in me by my dad. These qualities are heading for extinction in the current world, and yet there are people.. alhem like my boss who doesn’t appreciate it. I am not saying that these qualities should not be pratice, but we must be practical in using it. Don’t just follow blindly, use it wisely.
Life is always very fair. You get some you lose some. I always tell my friends around me, and I quote:" In life, if everything and everybody are the same, won’t life be boring?" My defination is that if everyone has the same experience, same health, same wealth, same wisdom, same temper, etc, etc. What difference are we compared to those mindless machines?
As my age increases, I see things very differently. So many years to come (if that I can live a reasonably long life), so many things to understand, so many things to see. Mix feelings are common when you think of it, not so?
