The secret journal of JC the Terrible!

Okie, I admit, I am a human too. As all of my readers notice, I have been complaining my about my work since I started this blog. Since a couple of months ago, I was really down, no matter how people try to make me feel good or shown me the facts that I shouldn’t be feeling annoyed and so on, the golden words just don’t register in my mind.

And just today morning, I just suddenly and I really mean suddenly, I was enlighted. My Mind quoted itself:"Hey, it’s another shitty day for another shitty workload, just enjoy the shitty moments, may be you can find something real cool out of it!" And all a sudden I was feeling more optimistic about work, me, and life. Funny….

I have a very good friend who is now in UK. Let me do a background on him. He is a divorcee, caught his wife and another man in bed, his son was only 7 then. He owns a chinese takeaway and he really has the cooking skills to make sure his business blossoms, but it didn’t. He is living a very tough life and I really mean it, he is basically living in poverty. He is in shit since the day he divorce.

But it didn’t stop him from surviving, He stills run his shop, best of all with his income, he still do loads of charity. I was impress by his personality and I ask him don’t you feel that the world and God treats you with unfairness? and he answered:" I did, but I was just enlighten and I opened up to accept the challenges in life with a positive mind." I never really didn’t understand much, but he told me that in time I will understand." I always remembered what he quoted:" Your heart is like a window, and you holds the key to it, no matter how people talk sense to you, if you do not open the window, it really means nothing. When you open the window, you will find that the world is actually not bad at all and you will not be the top of the shitlist. There is always people shittier than you and there are people less shittier than you, you will always be in the center" End quote Well, these are actually my translated version and what I understand from his quotes, he sounds more "art" when he quoted me.

So, shitty is always better than no shit. No shit you are scared to get dirty, when you already have shit, it really doesn’t matter anymore………

Yeah, yeah, I know. I have not been writing to the blog for the past week. But I just can’t help it as My work was like piling up ever since I took a few days of to the wonderful Island of Redang.

The first day on the island was a dull day as rain kept an marathonic stamina till late at night. Anyhow, I was able to get some snorkering done, but the underworld looks dull too. That was not the chanllenging part, swimming 2 times the load was. The problem was with my girl friend who deos really swim well… as the matter of fact, she can’t even swim. Anyway, with her on my back, it got me thinking the fact that I really need to do the really macho thing, male ego some call it… protecting and caring for her….. sometimes I just don’t know am I ready to do the extreme for her?

LIfe in Redang is just relaxing as there can be if is not that Maxis has coverage over that area. Stupid colleagues just keep calling me and there I was putting up the message that I was on Annual Leave, but I think they choose to ignore the sentence and just keep going and going…… Like the Energiser Battery! To hell with them!

Apart these few unseen circumstances, I really did enjoy my vacation. It just so cool to take a break with the one I love to do something together. Hmm…. I think I could do somemore with this feeling. So anyone with suggestion of where to go and without MAXIS coverage?

am I being clouded by my own thoughts?? I guess I am not too clear about my mind to make a statement. As my buddy Daniel the Transcendent Wannabe always put it, if you are the one who is feeling F**ked Up where others just feel fine, then the problem is with you, YOU ARE REALLY F**KED UP!!!

He is definitely a friend that squeeze you between your legs and bring you back into the Real World. Get you start to think about your own being. But then, humans are always about themselves, and this "moral" has been with us from the beginning when human roam the earth. How can we change? How can I change? A tough question to answer!

I have been doing some think since last night, yeah! Since I’m just a mere mortal. I need to think more for myself. Look after my rear more carefully. Protocols and procedures will be followed. Emails, teleconferencing, verbal agreement and so on will be documented no matter from who. More paper work, but less thorns pricking my back. That I can foresee. With this kind of selfishness, I might bring myself to a higher level of office politics..

One of my primary principle, and I quote:" If you want someone to remember you, you must be either extremely good or extremely bad; Being good and remembered is easy, make everyone hate you and they still remember you, that’s the challenge!" I tried the easy part and sucked hard at it. I think I still prefer the challenging part, it is my destiny!

World! Prepare to meet JC the Terrible!!!

I’ve seen the light.. I’ve finished reading Dan Brown’s Angels & Demons. I was first fascinated by Dan’s Da Vinci Code when my brother brought it over to my place during his term break last year. Those who has not read his book should check it out, hmm…. may be some will not like it…. well, it all depends I guess

I’ve been travelling more and more by air planes lately. As one of the contractor commented on my frequency of absence at Site meetings, and he quote:" JC is living a jet seat life, if we want a meeting, just go to the airport to get the job done." Well, to be honest, I’m quite embarrassed at that moment. But what the heck, at least I get some time off from the local work stress and get myself acquinted with some best selling novels.

Oh well, the novel that I really want to read now is Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince which is going to launce soon, or is it launched? Kinda lost on dates nowadays, working zombie. Everyday wake up, work, go home sleep…. kinda routine. I hope I don’t get too numb with this life….

Anyway, I’ll be heading off to Pulau Redang this weekend…. the path of illumination as I am always in the dark. I’ve never been to Redang, I really hope that I can get  some rest, peace and quiet when i’m there….I am really looking forward to this vacation!

argh….. to Johor…. The State in Malaysia that I least want to go. I always feel that the place is a cowboy town, most of all it is infested by those who think that they are more superior than us, a.k.a. Singaporeans. Again, work has forced me to take a trip down under. To take the big plunge….

Driving to the country side of Johor is much better than travelling through the Highway as usual for me. Travelling through the old road, you will pass through alot of towns that you only see on highway signboards. For example, Yong Peng, Simpang Renggam, Ayeh Hitam and many more. How many people has actually been in these townships since the highway was open?

Life was chilled as I stayed overnight in Kulai, a quiet town 20km away from JB, a place for a simple man like me.. Ahem. to get some peace and quiet from the rushing and hectic life of the Concrete Forest. After a day’s rest, life seems to be much more beautiful, but sadly I have to leave it for the CF again…….sigh:(

I thought it was a cock crowing as I was lying comfortably on my bed. I said to myself:" What the toot, crazy bird, can’t a man get some peace and quiet around here?" After 3 minutes of continuous annoyment, I realised that it was my alarm that I set the night before using my Nokia 6260. "Damn! Another crazy day again!" What’s new? Why does a weekend end so fast, I always wonder? Why can’t we work 2 days and have the rest of the days as weekends??? Tired! Tired! Tired!

Traffic on Federal Highway! Boring…. and it kept me thinking why in the 1st place I want to get a job in Shah Alam? It’s like looking trouble when the "MAN" is not looking for you. Everyday, I do wonder, why humans are so pathetic? you know it is not good but you still do it. You know getting a car and paying the installment can make you a prisoner of money for some years and still people do it. I wonder why?

Just got back from our nation’s pride, the Twin "pricking" Towers. I had a meeting together with my manager and Petronas boys. Not a main issue in my blog though. Weather sucks, haze around town. Damn the Sumatrans, burning forest everywhere. It made my eyes so dry and sore. May be I need a solution. "Eyes moisturing googles". Hmmm…. cool, I might get some buck out of it, if I can commercialise it. Who knows? 

Just half a day and I am complaining, what else is install for tonight remains a mystery to me….

Been out yesterday night with Daniel to Chee Mun’s place in Cheras for a drink… "guai lo leong cha". Checking out new cafe. Well, it’s kinda boring when there are no girls to check out…. not exactly no but there’s one that I am quite interested. The lady, not girl is around 6feet tall. Tall and slim, that’s how I like it…… anyway, we are on the saturday issue right?

Had a heavy meeting this morning, life sucks, still wondering why I am still stuck in this company where shit is all around the place, I’m so low under the hierachy that dodging shit seems impossible. It’s coming so fast, by the time you know it, you have been shitted on.

Matrix action seems like a luxury……..

I didn’t know that starting a blog can be so easy. I did not thought that I will start one oe these things. what and how a blog works is still a mystery for me as I am not much of a writer nor a techy to do such things.

Can anyone show me the light? I hope so.